October: one of my very favorite months! Full of football, pumpkin, sweaters that hide my lack of motivation in the gym and Halloween costumes that definitely do not, and days like today. Today is what I like to call “A day of rest”. And no, today is not Sunday it is Tuesday. And Yes, I have class, 4 of them. But sometimes you need a break, a day to sit in bed, read, and be peaceful. These days are especially needed in October. 31 beautiful shades of red and yellow chaos, that is what October really is.
Test on Thursday, Ole Miss on Friday, Big/Little tonight (probably need to buy something for that?), Work on Wednesday, Bible study Wednesday, Auburn next weekend, Paper due next Monday, etc. etc. etc. THE LIST GOES ON! And on top of that there is Spring Break to book, a body take care of, and an Instagram to make pretty for all of my 1100 “friends”. Life on October 5 has become a balancing act of being a good friend, good daughter, good Christian, good student, and last but (probably) least, good to myself. 5 days in and I have already let the chaos settle in and take control of my world. 5 days in and I have let the chaos sweep away my confidence, pile on my jealousy, and break down the bridge between Jesus and me.
October is a month of comparison. Who did better on midterms? Which team won on Saturday? Who looks better in their minnie mouse costume? I recently went into the hair salon for highlights and walked out with GRAY blonde hair. I hate it. All weekend long I was embarrassed to take pictures because I was scared people would begin to compare me to my previous, long golden blonde hair self. I let it consume my thoughts.
October is also a month of jealousy. Did you know that October is the month with the least % of rainfall? You know what that means… Wedding Season! If you are anything like me you cannot log onto face book with out being bombarded with beautiful lake front images and white dresses. As much as I want to be happy for their happily ever after, jealousy takes over.
We have all been there. Your month might not be October; it might be Christmas or right before spring break. A period of time where you cant keep up with your own calendar, let alone your face book news feed. What’s funny is that the Lord understands! It says in Exodus 34 that he is a *jealous* God! His October is whenever we let the chaos take us away from him. He is jealous when we spend more time gossiping then praying and he is jealous when let Satan take over our minds. So take a day of rest, regroup and reconsider where your eyes are looking. Are they looking at everyone around you? Or are your eyes looking up at the Great Lord in Heaven, the jealous God that loves my gray tinted hair!
John 3:30 “He must become greater, I must become less”
Colossians 3: 1-2 “Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things”
Exodus 34:14 “Do not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a Jealous God”